detox

is for the birds!
we're working on breaking through this addiction.
this has been a permanent fixture on my girl's face since day 1.
i admit, i am partly to blame as her supplier and dealer.
but, it has saved us through church services, weddings, movies, and late nights. but now is the time to pull the plug.
i contemplated going cold turkey, but that's cruel.
she's not interested in sending "papi" on a "journey", or even in the "papi fairy".
so, we are scaling back to only two hits a day, nap time and bed time.

here's the problem, it used to be attached to her blankie. my thinking was "who would want to carry around a blanket everywhere?" well, she did.
but, late nights, when papi slipped out, we just searched the edges of blankie.
now that we have detached it, this is what we hear at night.
"PAPI!"
"I WANT PAPI!"
"I WANT PAPI!"
"I LOVE PAPI!"
as she roams through the house searching.
now, put this on a continual loop and play it for about 2 hours. . . . at 2 in the morning. last night, i held her as she finally fell asleep quietly saying "i want papi, i love papi, papi...."
sounding a lot like gollum searching for "his precious"